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thinspo

Time to overcome problems and the best way to success is thinspo! I'll beat myself up. It's time to wake up, there are few days till bitch season starts.

Look at those cheekbones :

 

 

want those abs!

Fucking Anorexic Troubles

As you can observe I act like I don't care. And I'm scared this's true. My life has become a monotonus routine. Everyday I binge eat in the same way. Pasta, muffins and buns with Nutella. Wth? The difference is that the flavour of the muffins is different each day. And the worst is I can't even purge because house is full of ppl >.< I don't know what to do. I have a really bad mood since yesterday. Feel everything depends on me and it's frustrating. Nothing can help  me, neither thinspo nor f tv until I think ' perfect body is amazing but can't replace this sweet muffin'. Should I give up or try harder to pass on the chocoalte cake and continue my 'diet'?

mmm muffn top, I'll have that if I don't stop eating

what the fuck was that?

I just can't understand this. I haven't been hungry, but i overate today. Gosh, I just hate that felling. I;m weak, useless, I'm not even good at something. There are nerds, geeks, book worms, choir ppl. Everyone is good at something. I'm just a stupid wannabe. Useless wannabe. Wish I were a fashion model. It's my secret wish. There's one problem-I'm too short. So for fuck's sake, be thin! Do something with your life. you're a dumbass so make ur body look good. I think it's too much to handle(don't b dirty minded). I'd like to go jogging, but I can't get my fat ass out. I'm speechless. i WANT TO PURGE but my mom's at home :x

nice stomach xo

got the experience

So everything was going right 'till today. My mum asked me to prepare a dnr for my family. And she didn't have to wait so long. I rose to the challenge. I prepared pasta with minced chicken in tomatoe and mayo sauce seasoned with coconut shavings and almond flakes. I must say that was really tasty, but unfortunately I couldn't stop tasting. I really don't know how many servings I ate 'cause I was eating straight from the fryin' pan. Then a brilliant idea occured in my head-"Let's bake some muffins!" I ate 7 blueberry muffins and that wasn't enough. Eating Nutella and golden syrup (the best combination) is always the best way to plunge yourself. Fortunately I vomited up. And I was doing it right. I've even vomited through the nose. I know this is not pleasant, but finally know how to do it. xo