Nothing much

How am I doing? I think good. Nothing changed, but happened a lot. I've been off for a long time, as always. Ok, one month ago (i think so) I had tried to puke so badly that I swallowed a toothbrush. Yes, toothbrush. I mean literally-whole TOOTHBRUSH. I'm not the one one who did that. After all, I read abt a girl who gulped down a toothbrush too. Anyway, I went to a hospital and had a lot of examinations and finally an operation. Despite two PVC's (Peripheral venous catheter) in veins on both hands everything ended good. The toothbrush was pulled out. After this had happened I didn't vomit for a month. But it couldn't last forever. I notice that I put on weight because my skinny jeans are really tight now, so I came back to purging myself again. I feel that's not ok, but I need to lose some lbs. I wish I were skinny. I try to eat healthily, but I overeat in the evening. I dunno how to prevent it, I'm powerless. I hope there;re some guys out there, who read my dramas ;) xo!