http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-QqArc12juQ&feature=related
this song tells almost everything but I need to write something. had an argue with my parents, dunno how this started. i was broken, I was fed up. Packed bare essentails and left the house. I dont even know what I did feel. Surprisingly, I was calm. No money, no plans and a plastic bag with some clothes, passing through my town. And the worst thought was that I didnt have anyone who I could go to, who I could talk to. I dont have friends or close mates. Im not telling I'm an outsider, I do have 'firends' at school or on Facebook with who I can make fun, joke or hang around after classes, but those people barely know me and its frustrating. "Dont nobody want you, dont nobody need you" I'm useless. They act like they like me but its fake. They keep sayin' "omg, ure so funny, I luv you" "hahah ure so sweet, I love when u get angry" etc. Afterwards they forget about me. They don't even keep in touch while summer break. I'm feeling a little bit confused-this blog turns from a overcoming eating disorder blog to a drama queen blog.To sum up, I cam back home after my mom had called me. She was so harsh and mad at me, she didnt want to encourage me to come back. I didnt have plans so coming back to family was the best idea. Next time will be different, I'm starting to save money. The positive side of this whole situation was that I didnt want to eat something after all. I didnt hear voice of temptation. But today I ate approximately 1800 cals and I;m so stuffed -,-
