Can't get through

Today is my 6th day of Giovanni's. And today I failed again :] I was fighting all day long, eating apples and other stuff and accidentally something broke. I didnt give a fuck and started eating. Yeast cake made by my mom, vanilla pudding, Nutella straight from the jar, Toffifee with golden syrup and grilled cheese sandwiches with mayo and ketchup dip. I tried to vomit but I can't. I'm so weak that I can't even throw this shit up. I'm dissapointed and frustrated. I just wanted to go through this whole diet without any misfortunes. I had an aim; appointed award. Nothing goes my way. I'm gonna try 2 puke again.